When Life gives you Lemons.. Be one..

 Well.. We are now on day 4 of Potty Training Londyn Lucille.. and I have to be honest.. It hasn't been terrible.. Last night we actually had a successful "Big One" in the potty.. She's actually doing REALLY good.. We are super Proud of her. Its sad that when you turn into a parent these are your 'rewards'.. Big Ones in the Potty.. lol.. Such is life.. I knew Times' they was a changin' two years ago when I was fired up about getting a Vacuum and a Mop for Christmas.. But.. we are on our way, and hopefully this will be the last time I talk about this.. because trust me, I'm sick of it too..

Isn't it funny the things you think will be so easy as a parent.. that turn into like the worst things ever? Now Granted, because I was never around children, I didn't have a LOT of expectations of myself on the parenting scale.. but I did think Potty training would be relatively easy.. I mean why wouldn't it be? Everyone does it.. But its by far been the worst thing.. I thought things like going out to eat would be terrible with twins.. but thankfully my girls have always been pretty great in public.. they mind.. they eat whatever you put in front of them.. and they are polite (usually).. but the Potty Training.. that is the one that kicked me right in the face.. I think it was the worst because just when you think you are at 100%.. Bam.. Pee in the floor.. Sorry for ruining this for you if you haven't gone through it yet.. but trust me when I tell you, Diapers will start looking better and better to you..

Anyway, Moving on.. I feel like I'm so behind on the girls party.. when in reality, I'm not.. but the difference is.. usually by this time I have a whole pile of things that I know I'm going to do.. Well since I'm doing "Twin O Ween".. I bought all the stuff last October and now I can't remember what I have!! Jordan's Aunt Martha also sent some amazing stuff.. and I don't remember what all that is either! So this weekend, Unkie B is coming over and we are going to get a handle on it! This year I designed the Invitations myself, and I'm working on the 'treats' to go with the 'tricks' for the party! I feel confident in saying it will be awesome..although I'm not sure I can ever out do the Michael Jackson party..

We took the girls to the OYE last weekend (Oklahoma Youth Expo).. They had spent the weekend with Gigi & Pa, so we all met at the Stockshow on Sunday. Cross likes watching the cattle show.. Londyn likes running up and down the ramps.. and I like the smell of Wood chips and Manure, so its a win/win for everyone.. I love the Big Cow they have positioned out front, and so do the girls..

This weekend we are getting our Cabinets painted. They are currently "Honey Oak" and Jordan has come up with a color scheme of Grey and White, so the tops will be White, and the Bottom cabinets will be grey. I'm excited to see how it turns out with my Bling Knobs on them! We found the woman who is doing it (Kari) on Facebook Marketplace, so I'll let you guys know how it turns out. She's going to paint the fireplace too, so I think it will really spruce things up!

In Other exciting news, the girls got chosen to be Brand Reps for a fantastic Online Boutique, Tdazzled Too Buy.. The adorable Red/Black outfits they have on in this picture are from there along with a lot of other things.. So If you need really cute clothes (boys and girls) for your kiddo, go ask to join the group, and list BR 47.. that is the girls number, and they will get the credit!  I'll be posting more cute stuff from them in a bit.. I just got some of it in yesterday with "Trolls" on them, so we'll do a photo shoot in a little bit.. 

Went to Hatch OKC last weekend for breakfast.. if you haven't gone there yet.. get there.. You can thank me later. Its fantastic. Also still watching "Nashville" and "This is Us" and bawling.. I read "Big Little Lies" and now I'm watching it on HBO.. that one thankfully does NOT make me cry.. lol.. Also still plugging away with my lipsense biz! Just found out my check this month is going to be enough to send the girls to gymnastics this summer! Score!! If you ever want to try Lipsense, or even join my team, just message me at kcshep1515@gmail.com and I'll give you all the details!! You guys have a great weekend! 

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Mommie Dearest....

Have you ever had one of those days where you feel like you have just kinda failed at life? I kinda had a WEEK like that last week.. It was a rough week.

On Monday we (MJ and I) went to a funeral.. those are never fun.. The girls had a playdate with a sweet little girl that ended up having Hand/foot/Mouth, so we have been super paranoid that they were going to get sick (so far so good, 6 days later, fingers crossed, and I swear its because I oiled them) and then we tried to go to a fun event at church (Volopulooza), didn't bring the stroller, and ended up chasing the girls across a soccer field.. #Parentfail. Drove the girls to Tulsa to visit MJ's Grandma and to go to the aquarium.. But by the time we had driven up there, visited, ate lunch, and they didn't take naps, they were losing their minds.. So..we didn't get to go to the aquarium. #parentfail. Ran out of Cross's "Juice" (pediasure), Diapers, and Wipes.. #parentfail. So as you can see.. I have had a week in which I just kinda feel like a big fat failure at life..

The girls have had allergies and its just not been easy for them.. Cross makes it much harder because she refuses to take medicine.. LL does too.. so I was thinking.. "Why don't I get those dissolve tabs and then it will be like candy?".. Yes, KC, great idea! So I did this..and it was a hit with Londyn. She loved hers.. so success.. Cross? NO. She spit it out. She knew immediately.. and even though it tasted like Grape Shasta.. she was having no part of it.. I tried to sneak it in gummies, cheese, meat.. Nope. She spit it out every time.. then started questioning the authenticity of the gummy.. Spit it out.. Leslie also tried to give it to her. She looked Leslie square in the face and said "NO" and threw it down.. Sometimes that Kid is too smart for her own good.. Thankfully she will still take the liquid form, so that has been helping with the coughing at night.

I have realized that a lot of things change when you become a parent.. and they should.. Your life is not your own anymore, and the days of doing what YOU want to do are over.. so if you are one of those people thinking you will have a baby and nothing will change.. Think again. It should change, because when you become a parent, you should be thinking of your Kids as the first priority anyway.. but that doesn't make it any easier for your former, selfish self to deal.. Right now Cross is still in the phase of clinging to me. I can't get more than 3 ft away from her or she starts yelling "mama! Mama!" and if I don't' go back (because I'm walking to the bathroom) she lays in the floor sobbing.. I know there will come days when I wish she would WANT me to be around her.. so even though sometimes those moments are trying, I try to just stop and sit with her, because I know the one thing she is really wanting is ME.. Well, and maybe a Popsicle..

With kids comes so many magical moments.. Moments that you would never trade, but there are also crap moments.. Moments in which you feel like you don't get it right.. that they will end up in therapy.. that you could have made a better choice.. that you shouldn't have said that.. that you got dealt a poor hand.. Its hard. There are weeks that you feel like you just don't measure up as a parent.. And there are days when you feel like you just need a break.. but then you feel guilty for feeling you like need a break! Guilt as a mom is huge. I have guilt for not using the words "So in love" with my newborns when they were born. I think the words that I used were like "Scared to death".. But everyone else will have babies and post these heart-felt pictures.. "We just had a baby..and we are so in love".. I was thinking "I just had 2 babies, How will I keep them alive?".. I have guilt that sometimes I just want to sleep till 7:00, or go to 3 movies in one day, Or sit at Barns & Noble by myself...

Its not that I don't enjoy being a mom.. I do.. but I think most people don't realize when you have kids, you are breaking up with your former life. All the things you formerly did, that basically revolved around what YOU want to do have to change. That can make you feel bad, and feel guilty, So its a wake-up call.. I read this.. and it was great.. So enjoy.. and feel less guilt.. and Celebrate your kids.. And realize that even when you screw it up, your kids are still going to love and forgive you.. much like Jesus does.

To The Mom Who Yelled at Her Kids Today (Thanks Brooke!)

I'm going to remind myself of this when Cross kicks me.. because she has diaper rash... and when I try to wipe cream on her.. it ends up on my eyes, my work clothes, and everywhere but..her Butt...And the next time she spits blueberry advil at me... lol.. Gotta love it!!!